The countdowns starts .. 2...1.....New Jersey

Well this is my last day here in El Centro. I am off to San Diego tomorrow and New Jersey Sunday. I am heartbroken at the thought of having to leave my brothers! This is the first time I was able to spend so much time with them in a really long time. I have always been away. Living somewhere else. Even when I lived in the same city it was in a different house. I would come for summers and stuff... but that was always just a month or so. This is the first time I lived with them for a long time and the first time we really made memories and so on! I wish I could stay... and at the same time I want to go so badly! I hate being torn like this. I hate wanting to be in so many places at one time. I hate it. I want to be everywhere with everyone I love. I guess that is the little kid in me talking. I still want it all and I hope I never want less! I guess it is a good thing to love so many people with all my heart.
Well as the countdown comes to a close my heart is breaking and is also looking forward to see other people I love!